It’s real life story; yes I am alive . . .


I peeped into the Oxford Dictionary to answer a question of my grandson Darsh. He asks one question every day and I need to find answers that cope with his inquisitive mind. It was to give meaning of ‘transformer’ – his new toy.

I looked into the words on alphabet “T” and those that connect to my life’s experiences. One word that caught me by instinct was “transverse” and found the meaning as: – Trans, meaning “across,” and verse, meaning “to turn”. In my life a similar episode happened with a twist and a turn!

The second word with alphabet “T” that I stumbled upon was “transmute”. It means a major abrupt, startling change induced by a magic or a supernatural power.

I looked for the word with letter “T” – “transform”. The meaning is –to change in form, appearance or structure. That was to answer his question.

Having answered him, I sat back and recollected how meaning of these three words influenced me? I remembered Paulo Coelho’s book “The Alchemist”. Lesson from this book is “when you want something, the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it”.

Now I connect you to my personal story – a real life experience. How the meaning of words transverse; transmute and transform synthesized in the alchemy process within me.

I was consulted by doctors to identify after I went through a traumatic painful experience on my back bone. Doctors confirmed that I had no heart or brain damages. They opined my disease needed further diagnosis. I was at Hinduja Hospital, Mumbai. Thirteen years back I moved in there clutching on shoulders of my brother-in-law Hemraj. Our family friend Dr. Alva spoke with Dr. Asok Iyer. I was in the MRI scanning machine for over one hour and nerve specialists analyzed I contacted TRANSVERSE MYELITIS. Tests revealed that 99.99% I may not survive, with spinal cord injuries.

TM is a neurological disorder caused by inflammation of the spinal cord that damage myelin. Damage causes nervous system that interrupt communications between spinal cord, rest of body and brain. Symptoms of TM include paralysis of body, urinary retention, and loss of bowel control. Tests indicated that sense elements from down under my stomach had ceased and paralyzed my lower part of body. I was handicapped. A condition that set me paralyzed in few hours. The trauma and pain on my back with crucial pain followed by numbness of body and mind! I became helpless and surrendered with prayers. A tiny virus enters body through breath and I am half dead.

Steroids and physiotherapy helped me lift limbs millimeter by millimeter. Sensory mechanism and nervous system improved responses from toe to brain. Technology and medical profession along with prayers from near and dear ones helped improve conditions.

After many days I walked within corridors of hospital. It took time to come out and back into life. Time that I spent understanding life and games we play. Every one learns lessons from life’s experiences. Some times from painful and unfortunate incidents and at times from cheerful exposures.

Doctors as well internet data say that 99.99% is casualty rate of serious TM patients. I tried to manage half of the success rate with prayers. We had no clue to influence the situation. The other 0.005% was in the hands of medical profession.

The invisible % came as a miracle from someplace else. The un-known!

Lesson from TM (transverse to transmute to transform) is of great value. It took a process of alchemy within heart and mind. Alchemy is a magic of transmuting things of lesser to a greater value. I underwent alchemy to transform!

I revisited to understand who I am? Looked at purpose of life – Tried to appreciate how little I knew. Tried to overcome anger; tried to develop feelings of empathy and gratitude. I tried to befriend myself to find who the savior is? It’s within – the power is within, you need to understand who you are? That makes us one.

Lesson TM taught me through alchemy – “Inhale confidence and love and exhale doubt and anxiety – rest in His hands”.


20 thoughts on “It’s real life story; yes I am alive . . .

  1. It’s one thing to survive that experience dear Papa, but quite another to share with us a distilled learning, every day! Thank you!

  2. That was straight from the heart and it did pull my heart strings. thank God for His mercies and yes it is the tea bag in the hot water that brings out the flavours and so you have also transformed and become the wondeerful perso n you are . stay happy stay fit .

    • Yes, Pratish – Thank you…. I recollect telling my story when I was undergoing a Management Training and while swimming in the pool breath wise a friend asked me why not length wise? I narrated my story on TM and may be less than two weeks later his relative had similar symptoms and hearing my story at the pool – they contacted same hospital and that person also recovered!

  3. It takes a lot of courage to overcome something when you that your chances of success are 0.01% . The fact is that you are a living example of victory against all odds is truly inspiring. Your story will inspire many to not give up no matter how difficult the situation is.

  4. True example of God’s benevolence and his miracles. You had shared this experience with us in Saudi, but as Megna said, recalled the whole episode here again. A quote came to my mind that I had read: “The human capacity for burden is like bamboo- far more flexible than you’d ever believe at first glance.”
    Thanks for sharing, Amar

    • Remember the Rubber Band ? Stretch as long as flexible but never allow it to break. Radhika – thank you for your perspectives, all well this side & pray that you continue to have miracles in your life. Regards

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